new moon in cancer

new moon in cancer 15:57 pacific 05 july 2024 🐚🦀🌀🌊🌑

with saturn & neptune rx in pisces 🪐🌟☁️🌀 & pluto rx in aquarius 💫🏺🦢🌊

this week i have been so tired - physically, emotionally, spiritually. i haven’t been able to fall asleep until the early hours of the morning, feeling restless and uneasy. it is not until i cry and cry that i am able relax my mind and body in order to invite sleep in. my dreams have been the most vivid they’ve been in a long time. i feel incredibly creative and driven, and i also feel hopeless and lost. i’m struggling. i am scared and angry and frustrated. i am heartbroken and overwhelmed and so, so tired. even my bones feel exhausted. i am also in awe, full of gratitude and wonder and most importantly, hope. i am a lot of things.

cancer energy is the balance of soft and hard, of diving deep into our emotional bodies and truly listening to our intuition - not out of fear, but of the deep knowing that washes in when our inner current is calm. intuition is a whisper, anxiety yells. cancer energy is introverted and deeply emotional, the connection with the ocean and the Divine Mother. the crab has a sanctuary within itself - we are our own sources of refuge. what is our commitment to taking care of our bodies, our homes, our inherent kinship with each other? this new moon is especially highlighting commitment and a sense of safety and home - how we feel secure in ourselves, in our households, in our relationships & community. how do we nurture ourselves first so that we then can nurture and pour into others from a true place of abundance? how is our spiritual hygiene and practice reflected in the way we care for our bodies, the altar we carry with us everywhere? cancer energy is the mother; true unconditional love. a warm embrace, a soft place to rest your head and nourish your body. this new moon in cancer is joined with saturn being retrograde in pisces, highlighting even further this introverted energy. to tend to our immune systems, our plantcestors, our connection with the divine and our own divinity. it is the return to the self to then show up in love. neptune in retrograde amplifies this introversion, asking us to reflect on our spiritual practices, artistic endeavours & emotional patterns. to cultivate discernment so that we may gain clarity on where we have been deluding ourselves or attempting to escape. pluto is also retrograde in aquarius, which amplifies the energy of death, rebirth & transformation, of taking a quiet moment of introspection to shed light on our shadows and what cycles no longer serve us. to lovingly release past cycles & past versions of ourselves and to simply surrender. surrender to the ever changing current and to do so while embodying the energy of love.

love is an action, a verb. love is showing up. love is presence. love is witnessing. 🤎

it is also no coincidence that this planetary energy is happening in this moment in history. it is in such moments of collective turmoil and oppression that we have to lean further into vulnerability and love. if there’s one thing for certain, it’s that our government and the powers that be have never had our backs. we Indigenous and Black folks been knew this, but the collective is finally starting to see it. all that we have is each other and we owe each other everything. we need community, it is our very nature. community is not simply who lives near you, whom you’ve associated with for x-amount of time or even who you share relations with.

true community is those who can see and witness you in all your divinely human messiness, and love you entirely. to love you on purpose. and who can hold you accountable because they are committed to loving you.

we are facing truly terrifying times. who do you want to hold and be held by during them? people who refuse to see you and honor you? or people who simply want to love you because you deserve to be loved? who do you want to face the end of times with?

i know that i want to be a source of solace and comfort, of replenishment and joy for my people. the world is so scary. we do not need to have that in our homes and in our bodies. only we can take care of us.

i want to take care of each other. i want my hands and feet in the earth, tending to her as she does me. i want true partnership and kinship, with my lover and with my friends and family and neighbors. i want a home full of laughter and joy, good healing food, and happy barefoot babies with full bellies, some of whom i birthed from my womb and some not. they’re all my children no matter how they arrived. i want to nurture and pour into, and i want to be nurtured and poured into. i want my home to be a place where people come to be replenished and healed, to convene and organize and thrive. i want to be truly radical and revolutionary, to be brave and unapologetically fight for our collective liberation, with you by my side.

and i know that the only way to do that is with love. so many of us are scared of love because we haven’t been loved tenderly. our people have been separated from the safety of pure love and we are all doing our best to relearn what was once natural to us. i believe it will be again. but that means we have to choose it. again and again. especially when it is scary. the only way out is through.

that’s one of my strengths that i admire most: i have been hurt & betrayed & abused in ways most will never know, and yet i always become softer and more willing to love. my heart feels like it’s constantly expanding and i feel deeper and richer forms of love all the time. i give out of a place of generosity and warmth. whatever love i have given you is yours to keep.

lately i have been the bravest i have ever been in expressing my love for those around me. i have stood in my power and shared whats on my heart. it terrifies and overwhelms me. sometimes i feel like i can barely breathe. i have cried myself to sleep every night for weeks. i don’t know what to do. and so i return to the earth and i pray. i pray to her on behalf of my loved ones. i pray to her for myself. i pray to her for her. i pray that i am able to serve and protect her as she does me.

to be truly revolutionary is to boldly claim and live in your joy. there is no righteousness in prolonged suffering. i don’t care what abrahamic doctrines attempt to assert. there’s no prize for betraying yourself over and over again, only sickness and pain that festers and permeates.

love should feel warm and safe. who can you feel at ease with? how does your body feel when you’re around someone? are you tense and activated? or are you sleepy and calm? those are your clues. your body is wise. much wiser than our brain. to be able to rest in one another’s arms before facing the world together, that is what love is. this new moon in cancer, i welcome in such love with open arms and a tender embrace. ch'ajb'eyx for loving me and for allowing me to love you.

i pray you feel tended to. be soft and gentle with yourself today. plant the seeds for what you truly desire and be patient as the light begins to shine through the darkness of the soil. cuídense. 🐆